Anita Rani shares pain of teenage years as she grasped ‘control’ through self-harm

Anita Rani discusses her new book ‘The Right Sort of Girl’

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Countryfile host Anita Rani has spoken candidly about growing up and seeing her life dramatically change. The presenter notes that while she is grateful for what she had, she often struggled to gain control.

I found it both terrifying and satisfying.

Anita Rani

Anita, 43, was raised in Bradford, West Yorkshire, by parents Lakhbir Kaur and Balvinder Singh Nazran.

The presenter lived a somewhat affluent life, defying the odds and attending a private school alongside her brother.

Anita notes that this was her parents’ subtle way of “giving them a boost” by “infiltrating the system”.

However, while she lived a life that some could only dream of, behind closed doors it was a completely different story.

While the country was gripped by a recession, Anita watched her parents’ clothing company vanish, with Lakhbir and Balvinder spending every penny they made on her and her brother’s education.

However, Anita struggled as a teenager, admitting that it all became too much at times.

Speaking frankly to You magazine, she said: “The only time I felt I gained some control over my life and felt some kind of release, felt something…

“Was in those moments when I’d sit in my room and cut myself and watch the blood slowly appear from under my skin.

“I found it both terrifying and satisfying.”

The presenter, who currently resides in east London, went on to say: “I felt alive and present and, in those moments, thought about nothing else.

“Nothing, I just focused on the pain and the blood and it was a sweet relief from the rest of my life.”

In her autobiography, The Right Sort Of Girl, Anita spoke about her struggles with mental health, in the hope of helping those who may be struggling silently.

“I don’t think people expect someone on the telly to have gone through something like that,” she explained.

Anita added that “it happened” and by sharing her story, she hopes to “make it easier” for other people, adding that she wrote her story, aimed at her 16-year-old self who didn’t know “what the hell is going on”.

The presenter was encouraged by her husband, Bhupinder to be honest about her feelings in the book and during a new chat, outlined her wedding concerns.

In an Instagram update last week, Anita admitted she was both “nervous and excited” about the release of her autobiography.

She joked that her dog kept her grounded as he couldn’t care less.

“The first time I’ve held a physical copy of my book The Right Sort of Girl. I had to capture the moment. Rafi literally couldn’t care less,” she wrote.

Anita continued: “Both nervous and excited about its release. Young Anita, who loved writing, would not believe this moment happened in her life.”

“Aw, that was such a beautiful moment to share. Congratulations! Will be ordering a copy,” one user wrote in the comments section of her post.

“Amazing work!!” added Good Morning Britain star, Ben Shephard.

“So excited to read this,” a third person chipped in.

If you or someone you know has been affected by this story, Samaritans (116 123) operates a 24-hour service available every day of the year.

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