Kerry Katona has opened up about her battle with addiction, which she says started at the tender age of 14 after her mum gave her speed.
The former Atomic Kitten star, who was invited to open a new rehab facility in Gloucester on Thursday, has been in rehab twice before to treat her bipoloar disorder and drug addiction.
Broadcasting her frank chat on Instagram live, the mum-of-five revealed she became addicted to drugs as a young teen.
“I know my mum’s watching. I’m very proud of my mum and who she is today but my addition started back when I was 14.
“I was in a foster home and I was only allowed to see my mum via supervised visits. I’m the only child.
“I went down to the pub on a Sunday, as one does from being up North, and I remember my mum going to the pub, she was with a woman at the time. My mum became a brief lesbian.
“And I walked into the toilet, I was 14, and she had this bag of white powder," she said, according to The Sun.
“I said, ‘Mum, what’s that?’ She said, ‘It’s sherbet.’” The singer then acted out her mum dipping a finger in the bag and putting it into Kerry’s mouth.
She continued: “I went home to my foster parents and I must have been awake for 24 hours… it was speed.
“For me that was normality. Every weekend we’d go out… and this is not me blaming my mum or me saying, ‘My mum’s a bad mum.’
Kerry said she no longer uses drugs and nor does her mum Sue after both turning their lives around.
She went on: "So many people are so scared of talking out and suffering in silence. Don’t suffer in silence; these people are here to help you."
"Don’t ever feel ashamed, don’t feel embarrassed. I’ve been there. I’m very open, I’m very honest."
The mum also opened up about the impact her split from Brian McFadden had.
Kerry described the Westlife star as her "knight in shining armour", and while she was with him she stopped doing drugs.
However, following their split in 2004 and moving back to London she ended up spiralling back into a world of drugs.
‘Unfortunately the w**ker left me…I’m joking, we’re on good terms…and that meant I had to move back over to England but, me going back from where I started from, you lie down with dogs, you’re going to get fleas.
"I think for me, after the jungle, my fame became so high, and being married to someone in Westlife and, when I did go over to England, all my friends around that time, they were all into the drugs.
"And I wanted to prove, I’ve not changed. I’m still ‘our Kez’, I’m up for a good time. So I’m buying all my friends coke and trying to get people to love me.
"I never grieved Brian which made me chase that first buzz, that first line, and it just went on and on and on."
Kerry went on to discuss her bipolar disorder and recalled the infamous This Morning interview.
She said: “I was on lots of bipolar medication. I’m sure you can remember the infamous interview on This Morning.
“If I was sitting on This Morning with my limb missing… Because you can’t see it, the family and the people surrounding the person suffering mental health problems or addiction don’t understand it.
“Saying to me, ‘Get up out of your bed and get over yourself, Kerry,’ is like telling somebody in a wheelchair to get up and walk.
“That’s how severe my depression had actually got. I was having suicidal thoughts… don’t suffer in silence!”
Kerry is hoping that by sharing her own story she will encourage others to speak out and get help.
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