Ian Huntley’s tormented daughter today reveals how her evil dad brushed aside her pleas to tell her why he murdered 10-year-olds Holly Wells and Jessica Chapman.
Haunted Samantha Bryan, 19, says she asked him to help her put the shame and anxiety that has blighted her life behind her.
The teenager, born after Huntley raped her mum Katie, 36, when she was just 15, wrote to him in prison begging: “I need you to help me understand why you did it.”
But all the self-pitying child killer told her was: “It was the worst day of MY life.”
Now Samantha has vowed never to contact the Soham killer again despite his pleas to her to visit him in jail.
“Not everyone will understand why I contacted him, ” says Samantha, who only found out he was her father after Googling crime rates for schoolwork four years ago.
“But can you imagine what it feels like to know one of Britain’s most notorious killers is biologically your father?
“I hoped for remorse, but instead I got evasion. I could never forgive him for what he did, but I did think he might do the right thing and say what he did and how he feels about his terrible crime.
“I’ve spent the last four years trying to get my head around being his daughter. I’ve never done anything wrong in my life, but he’s cast a huge shadow over it.
“My mum warned me against contacting him and said he’d be too much of a coward to give me a straight answer.
“I thought perhaps he would do something decent now he’s had 15 years in prison to think about what he’s done. But she was right. I was naive.
“He said he wants me to meet him one day, but I’ll never, ever agree to see him now.”
Friends Holly and Jessica, both 10, were murdered by Huntley at his house in Soham, Cambridgeshire, in August 2002.
They were pupils at the school near where he worked as a caretaker.
The girls went missing after leaving a family barbecue to buy sweets. Their bodies were found two weeks later.
Huntley, 44, denied their murder and has never given a full account of what happened.
Samantha – who lives in Cleethorpes, Lincs, just three miles from her father’s home town Grimsby – started writing to him in autumn.
“Being his daughter haunts you and there’s no escape. I’ve grown up here with people whispering, ‘that’s Ian Huntley’s daughter’. One boyfriend dumped me as soon as he found out,” she says.
“I’ve often burst into tears when his face has appeared on the TV screen.
"My mother was a victim of Huntley as he inflicted violence on her when she was just 15 and he was her boyfriend.
"He attacked her when she was expecting me. She’s told me I was very nearly his first victim when I was still in her womb.
"Because she was pregnant with me she found the strength to break free, but she saw his dark side.
“She sheltered me in childhood, and I only found out when we were doing crime rates for Grimsby and Cleethorpes and the picture of my mum came up on Google. It took me straight to the story that he was my dad.
“I was utterly devastated then. And now I’m older I thought that by writing to him I could put that to rest and get answers as to why he did what he did to those two innocent little girls.
“I hoped it would enable me to move forward with my life. But that’s not what he said.”
Instead Huntley told Samantha he didn’t “relish” the idea of discussing what was “unimaginably the most horrendous day of my life”.
Also he claimed he didn’t understand what happened.
The only admission Samantha got from lifer Huntley in letters back from maximum security Frankland prison in Durham was that he had failed her as a father.
But even then he claimed he has never forgotten Samantha’s birthday.
While his troubled daughter wanted answers as to why her father was a child killer, he concentrated instead on bragging about how he spends his day project managing a team of painters and decorators behind bars.
The murderer said he had been painting for the last five years. Giving an insight into life inside prison, he said there was only one “friend” on his wing of 108 inmates who he felt he could trust.
Huntley also expressed his desire for Samantha to meet members of his family, including his mother Lynda.
The murderer, serving two life terms for his crime, even joked about his family recounting embarrassing stories about his childhood, apparently oblivious to the distress he has caused his daughter.
And in one pathetic attempt to win her over, Huntley claimed he had always been interested in her life.
Finally, he shut Samantha out – recently telling her he was not going to respond to her for the “forseeable”, telling her that his letters would be read by security.
“I felt he had a fear of someone making money. That saddens me even more,” says Samantha.
“I do think about Holly and Jessica’s families, and the agony he put them through.
“I’m sorry he was ever born, but at the same time if he hadn’t been then I wouldn’t be here today.
“Of course a part of me is fascinated and yet I also feel intense revulsion as he has a blood connection to me I wish did not exist. But the reality is that it does exist.
"There is this blood connection and I’m trying to come to terms with that. I know there isn’t any evilness in me.
“Reading his letters made me realise that he enjoys a life behind bars, but he stole the life of those two little girls and in doing so he stole their families’ future too.
“I know now he’s never going to give me the answers that I’m looking for.
"And while that makes me sad, at the same time, it’s also allowed me to close the door on him.I just can’t allow him to impact on my life any more.”
NEXT WEEK: Huntley’s ex…‘My hell at hands of monster’
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